Thursday, September 27, 2007
stfu
Tonight is another beautiful night. The kind of night where you can go outside, hear the reverb of Whitewash, and realize your insignificance.
The window is open, a stale air rolls trough. Summer's dying fast but manages to keep one foot in the game, today being the hottest day of autumn for a few weeks.
Its only 88 outside.
I havent seen my father in 2 years. I've never seen Jamie.
Thats all going to change very soon.
I wish this apartment didnt feel like a prison. If only i had enough strength to open the locks myself. But thats what my training is all about.
Being one. Being the anti. Being the pro.
I have been getting better at controlling my anger. Some of the time, i cant help it, and forget to save face.
Deep breath. Inhale. Exhale.
i hate sleeping alone.
The window is open, a stale air rolls trough. Summer's dying fast but manages to keep one foot in the game, today being the hottest day of autumn for a few weeks.
Its only 88 outside.
I havent seen my father in 2 years. I've never seen Jamie.
Thats all going to change very soon.
I wish this apartment didnt feel like a prison. If only i had enough strength to open the locks myself. But thats what my training is all about.
Being one. Being the anti. Being the pro.
I have been getting better at controlling my anger. Some of the time, i cant help it, and forget to save face.
Deep breath. Inhale. Exhale.
i hate sleeping alone.
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Friday, September 21, 2007
metal? we dont need no stinking metal!
So i want to try an experiment and see if it helps any. music affects moods and i listen to the 2 extremes. black metal. pure hatred. and chill music. i feel like im in a much better mood while listening to say Tsutchie or Fat Jon than Leviathan or Marduk.
Not that i dont love Metal. But, i want to try something. For as long as i can remember ive been saying im two people, characterized by music. rock lobster and i am the black wizards, was written in an old high school notebook.
So, here goes. Night 1 without any metal. If you don't believe me just check my last.fm http://www.last.fm/user/shazmaru
not that anyone reads this but i like to delude myself by thinking i have an audience.
SO first thing first split metal and other music into the 2 folders. Just so i can unite them at a later point, but to make listening to music easier on amarok. Ill just take the Metal albums out.
so we'll see how that goes.
on another note, i need to get laid. and a job. then i need to find a smart mousy wild-in-bed girl who gets stoned and watches lupin by herself..
cause thats what im doing O_o
Not that i dont love Metal. But, i want to try something. For as long as i can remember ive been saying im two people, characterized by music. rock lobster and i am the black wizards, was written in an old high school notebook.
So, here goes. Night 1 without any metal. If you don't believe me just check my last.fm http://www.last.fm/user/shazmaru
not that anyone reads this but i like to delude myself by thinking i have an audience.
SO first thing first split metal and other music into the 2 folders. Just so i can unite them at a later point, but to make listening to music easier on amarok. Ill just take the Metal albums out.
so we'll see how that goes.
on another note, i need to get laid. and a job. then i need to find a smart mousy wild-in-bed girl who gets stoned and watches lupin by herself..
cause thats what im doing O_o
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