Must be the moon

Well. Tonight is a crazy fucking night.

Preston came over early and I found out why he wasnt at work last night, and that we have to leave work 3 1/2 hours early tonight too. Apparently his Grandmother has a terminal case of skin cancer. Hes going to see her in the morning. Thats depressing. If she's Christian [or some derivative] , God bless her.

May she go peacefully.

Its times of weakness like this that affect everyone. I dont know his Grandmother, but i know mine. And I love her. His grandmother is young, and so is mine, so I can at least understand the fear and depression of the inevitable awaiting us all. Think of everything that's led them to this point. The legacy that they've helped create and sustain. A part of life is dying. Or returning.

Dark, dismal reminder of how precious our lives are. That we shouldn't take anything for granted.

Don Corleone's last word's were 'Life is so beautiful'


Never Good But Rules Of Paradise Are Never Nice
The Best Laid Plan Of Mice And Men Are Never Right
I'm Just A Vagabond With Flowers For Algernon
The Average Joe Who Knows What The Fuck Is Goin On
It's The Hope Of My Thoughts That I Travelled Upon
Fly Like An Arrow Of God Until I'm Gone


On a different note, we went to Riva's before work and I seemed to have happened upon it at the wrong time for once, or maybe it was the right time [i have a hard time differing between black and white]. As I walked in the front, a robber put his gone away, stole the money and ran out the back door. I think he ran to the Red Devil Cafe. To rob them or to hide out. Luckily, everyone was alright. The old mexican lady had tears in her vainy eyes. The old man, and what looked like the son [if Riva's is indeed family owned and operated] were angry. like they had seen that before. I know they have, I've driven by Riva's a few times with cop cars out front. Thats disappointing too. I bet the gun wasnt loaded. By the way the kid ran off when I walked in, it seemed like he was just using it for a scare, and that it wouldnt work against me. I check to see if everyone was alright, then ran to the back door, but then i lost him. I ran to the car to get preston's phone to call the cops, but the worker's inside had calmed down and called them.

Jesus. Thats why I know a lot of people with guns. They're afraid of that. They dont want their worst fear, the life around them that is totally out of their control, to pop up one day and take everything they have.

Wild west indeed.