what the hell?

What a shitty note to start the night on. Some asshole cant handle rejection, because of so they felt the need to scream at me for 20 minutes. Jesus. Ive been yelled at 3 times tonight.


This next passage from Ilium makes me happy though.

" "Did Pandarus give that endless speech before Diomedes killed him?" I Ask.
in my favorite translation, Pandarus bemoans his fate for forty lines, has a long dialogue with a Trojan captain names Aeneas--yes, the Aeneas-- and the two go charging at Diomedes in a chariot, flinging spears at the wounded Acheaen.
"No." Says Nightenhelser. "Pandarus just said 'fuck me' when the arrow missed its mark. Then he leapt on the chariot with Aeneas, tossed a spear that went right through Diomedes' shield and breastplate--but missed flesh--and said 'Shit,' in the second before Diomedes' spear caught him right between the eyes. Another case, I presume, of Homer's poetic license in all the speech-making." "

Hah! Brilliant.

Another hour until my smoke break. Although I bet I could take one now. But.. meh. Only been taking a call every 30-60minutes, and reading the rest of the time. I'll see how long I can wait. I'm getting a headache and the last time I was outside it started to sprinkle. I am also tired.



Coyote Borealis

The door to the smoking patio was locked. It had been for the passed two weeks. There was even a piece of paper on the door thanking everyone for smoking out front and that the patio will be finished a month ago. I'm the first person here for the graveyard shift, and I'm early, so i steal a stapler off of a nearby desk and use it to prop open the patio door. The locks are old and dont work, so if the door closes then it's a long jog to the front of the massive building. I walk through the door of the smoking patio into a tiny room that has two doors. One of them leads to a stairway which leads to the smoking patio itself, the other, a broom closet. My descent outside is lit better than previous expeditions. The stairway is more stable [the handrail can now be not only touched, but braced] and the god awful sewer pipes are no longer exposed.

I walk outside, past three video camera's and sit on one of the plastic picnic-tables. The smell of garbage is almost overwhelming. Apparently I have retained my Sentinel-like senses, which is no good for me, since I can smell the garbage perfectly fine. I move to a picnic-table that is farthest away from the garbage, light a cigarette and look for rain.

A few miles away I spy stratus clouds slothfully running down the sides of South Mountain, creating a mild fog, bathing the playground in the park below with morning dew. Above me is a storm front of violet clouds, swiftly moving eastbound. I inhale deeply the scent of rain and open my book. I feel a gentle raindrop and look at the table, tilting my head, allowing the light to reflect through the water letting me see a thousand tiny raindrops. The clouds aren't quite ripe enough. As is mostly the case in Arizona. They keep moving. The mood for reading has come and gone, and I position myself across one of the tables, staring into the sky.

Somewhere my father is making clouds just like these ones. I wonder if any of them are for me.

Aurora Notus

Aurora's go East - West
Active aurora - constantly shifting

Each curtain consists of many parallel rays, each lined up with the local direction of the magnetic field lines, suggesting that aurora is shaped by the earth's magnetic field. Indeed, satellites show electrons to be guided by magnetic field lines, spiraling around them while moving earthwards.

Jesus theres so much to research for this story I only want to make at least 30 pages.

I dont even have time to do it this weekend. ;_;

I need to get some notebooks.

Im mostly worried about rent for February. I was sick an entire week, so even working overtime I wont be able to catch up on hours. How depressing. Although I did get a raise. But that probably will not be in effect until the second paycheck of February. I missed 5 days last week. 5x64 = 320$ less than I should be. My work schedule for this week starts on last Wednesday and will continue until next saturday. Im going to try and work at least 16 hours this weekend, and the cutoff for the next paycheck is wednesday, So by doing that I will have made up 128$. From Weds to Weds thats about 6 and a half days give or take so that means that my paycheck should be around 448$ without tax.. Which will leave me with around 650$. Rent is 350-400 [plus the amount that i have to pay Goatis for], other bills total up to about 85$ and the loan I have to pay back is 178$ i believe. Then when I come back to work Ill try and work an extra two hours a few more days that way I can take Jesse out to dinner for her birthday.

Fuck I hate being sick. Makes everything worse. Including guilt. I feel like a catholic. I feel like a shitty roommate. I made a resolution to be better with money and what happens? I get flu and miss a week of work. Oh how cruel the fates melodies are. I'm trying really really hard to make this my year though. This is the first time that I've ever worked overtime, or made up hours. Thats how sincere I am. Im planning on working sunday/monday from 12-8

So much on my plate this weekend. Week. Jesus. I cant wait another seven days for this to be my real Friday. At least I don't have any hours that I have to work.

Anyone wanna lend me 50$?

Nah, didn't think so.

damn.

P-Funk: i just talked to some guy in baghdad... i almost expected to hear explosions in the background
Shaz: black ops having porn problems
P-Funk: no he was iraqi, he didn't have a sub just asked if i would leave his country
Shaz: hahaha

Oh wow, a nice older lady!!! I'm so happy! I keep getting some guy I wouldn't give a refund too calling and hanging up when i answer, i half expected that to be him. But no, older lady wanted to know what we were and what we bill for. I told her over 100,000 websites, about half if not more, are adult websites. Then I gave her some examples of other websites we charge for that are not adult-related. Then she said 'OK thank you' and hung up. That was neat. One of the few people who don't want to scream at me tonight. huzzah.

I have to read Glenn's chapter. I know it will be good. He happens to be well read, with a long list of distinguished authors. Or what I would call distinguished. He's really into the golden age of america which is exciting because I also share the love for those times when the sky was the limit, no computers and fascism didnt necessarily hide behind the American flag... as much.. Hm. I don't rightly approve of that last comment but I am a completest so fuck it. It stays.

I want to go home, smoke and go to sleep. Then come back here. Hopefully Ill get a hold of Paul so I can get a ride from him